This face makes it all worth it! The waiting, the infertility that came before, the tears, the pain, the hopes, the prayers. The swollen ankles, the stretch marks, the gallstones. The sleep deprivation, the walking, rocking, bouncing, begging her to please sleep. The fight to learn how nurse, the feedings at 3am, the late nights, the early mornings. The complete lack of time to knit because she just wants mommy to hold her.
When she smiles and you know she's smiling at YOU, you want to move heaven and earth for her. I keep waiting for it to become normal, but it doesn't. Every time I see her, awake and happy, tired and fussy, or sleeping peacefully in my arms... it doesn't lose it's magic.